When I was going through my level 3 Reiki Master training, my teacher would often say, “Reiki is not for sissies.” She warned us that things might come up and that it’s hard to look at the darkness and face things in this way. She mentioned that her former teacher had used this same expression. “Reiki is not for sissies,” became her warning, as we got deeper down the path and traveled to places we had never been. To be honest, I thought the phrase was a light hearted way of letting us know that it is okay if we cry, if we feel emotion, if we need to release something that is stuck. I didn’t really think that there was anything scary that was coming that would require us to be brave. I certainly didn’t think that this warning applied to me, as I didn’t think that there was anything that could come up from my energy, which would require courage to examine. So, I would hear this expression and think of it as a reminder that we were in a safe and sacred space and that if we cried, we shouldn’t judge others or ourselves.
But then it happened… somewhere between the Sacral chakra and the Solar Plexus chakra, as we dove deeper into our inner child and explored the years in our lives, spent finding our voice and discovering ourselves … I had a lot of things that came up for me. I remembered specific instances that had made me feel small and inferior. I could literally see myself and feel the energy of myself at ten years old, feeling pain once again, from words that stung. And, the heartache that was felt decades ago came flooding back, as if it were happening again. It is crazy how our feelings and emotions can literally get stuck and frozen in our energy. And, this trapped emotion can become a subconscious abundance block, as perhaps we became conditioned by the hurtful words and the feelings that they imprinted in our energy.
We are raised to follow rules and “be good” and we want so badly to fit in and please others, that we don’t realize until we are older, that perhaps somewhere in those years, we were ignoring the whisper of our true inner calling. Perhaps we were scared and didn’t trust in ourselves enough. We placed too much value on what others said and thought of us. We are raised being told “not to shout”, “not to cry”, so a lot gets pushed down. We are told not to dwell on things or hold grudges, to forgive and forget… and so we do. But, our energy doesn’t forget. And, when Reiki enters the picture and starts moving that energy… the feelings and emotions that have been trapped, start to come up. It is almost like a frozen part of us is defrosting.
As a society, we are accustomed to turning away from pain… take a pill for a headache, go for a run, stay away from situations that bring us sadness or discomfort. So, when Reiki brings these things back to the surface, we might feel the need to turn away. Why would we want to feel this pain again? I thought Reiki was supposed to be relaxing and make us feel unconditional love. But, that is just it. The feelings are being brought up, to help you realize that perhaps they held you back in some way, perhaps you weren’t living as big as you should be, because someone had made you feel small. And, it is time to release that and step deeper into who you truly are.
Reiki moves the energy… releases what is trapped… brings these feelings into our consciousness… and gives us a chance to take a closer look, with more wisdom.
This time, we are not the ten-year-old girl, we are now a grown woman who can see the lesson in the pain. We can feel compassion for the person who hurt us, as we now realize that the pain they inflicted on us was their own and send healing and love to this person or situation. We can release any guilt or shame we had trapped inside of us. We can love and nurture the young girl and set her free. And, we can fly. Much higher and stronger than before.
When we can realize the peace and freedom beyond the pain, we understand that now, that pain is truly released. This newfound feeling brings a light that most definitely raises our vibration. It helps us understand our relationships better. It helps us to get to know our higher self and to truly love the person we have become. This empowers us to have more confidence, to take chances with more courage and to be a better mother to our own ten-year-old daughter. Sometimes moving this energy can be a gateway to new experiences for future generations.
It can most definitely be scary facing our darkness and it does take courage. When things come up, it is easy to run. But, if you trust in Reiki and stick with the pain, you can grow in ways you never thought you could. It doesn’t matter how many years have passed or how old you are. Our energy doesn’t age and the lessons will carry on with our soul. Allowing us to bring in more light and pass that light onto others.
It is all a beautiful process.
So, I agree… Reiki is definitely not for sissies. And, if you can find the courage to stick with it, Reiki can help you slay your dragons. Even the ones you thought had left you long ago. The ones you didn’t even realize had hurt you as much as they did. They have become blocks to beautiful experiences that can be released and overcome with regular Reiki. We are all on a healing journey and there are many lessons to learn, to bring us closer to our higher selves.
Don’t turn away from the darkness. Bring on the light and illuminate the path ahead.
Shine on with Reiki. You are worth it.
